Monday, January 27, 2014

end of my January

It's really sometime for me to come back to this site.. I was planning to close this account and the other one just before this year get started but unfortunately most of the entries had some nostalgic value to me. Also I have been thinking  to make both blogs as hard copy (really??) but its really required commitment from myself to do it.
As the word 'commitment' appears, I am still not understand why I feel hard to find a righteous job for me to start my career path. Because out there I faced with several issues that put me in dilemma but at the end, by decision iI had made, I still in confusing. Did I made a right decision? Three jobs came but non of them missed my kick..the forth coming but I was kinda been advised to not take the job because of the 'S' issue.
Keep waiting?  urhh you know it's suffering, especially for me who have big dream.

Despite of all lost and things happened,  I was glad cuz I'm here to get involves in family things. An aunt passed away on the sameday my granny got hospitalized. May Allah bless me n my family. Amin

Sunday, January 5, 2014

early January

Hi..happy new year to me :-D haha
Lot things happened within 5 days and it would take more than hour if i write details in this entry.

A day before new year I went for an interview and I think I got the job but on the next day (new year) I called the interviewer and choose not to accept the job.

On Saturday 4th during lunch my granfather asked me to bring him to meet his 'biras' at Rawang. So I persuaded my granny to follow us since we're going to meet her own brother and also the only sibling she had today. Even my granny's memory are not good as 3years past but the bond between them still strong and it can be seen from how my granny show her care to her brother which later she forgotten who did she massage n visited. Me? I sat at dining table n never get close to that granduncle all the time.

Today 5th January,  early in the morning i heard phone ranging then i heard a confirmation about my granduncle have just past away. I came to the funeral n try be a men but there were time I still have tears in my eyes..  tears of lost of a closest granduncle, regrets for never came near to him on his last day in this world and sad when i saw my grandmother's face who just lost her last sibling. She might cry at the funeral but i knew now she already forgot her brother has had past away.

Life must go on.. Remember people at our past and appreciate people who live today.